I am reading a book for school right now called "Some We Love, Some We Hate, Some We Eat"by Hal Herzog. It's great so far, it's much more interesting than my pharmacology text book and it's an area of interest for me. It brings up a lot of questions about the human animal relationship and why do we have the ideas we do about certain animals. Something I have realized more and more as I continue my education and get more real life experience working is that although it was a love and interest of animals that drew me to this field I often do things that many would see as cruel, and there are times that I don't even want to do what has to be done. It brings up a lot of questions for me. I wrote my dad after a really tough day last week and this was part of his response.
" I thought of you having to deal with the death of the animals. A
real paradox for someone who is learning to help them and repair their
bodies. It seems of real significance to me though as I spend some time
thinking on it. I think of dogs or animals that I have had to shoot or
deal with because of the realization or understanding that it has to be
done. The taking of so many lives of animals has not made me more
hardened to life but rather to appreciate it more and even love animals
more if that makes any sense ? It is a profound moment in our lives when
we take the life of anything really. That's the way I see it. I guess I
see this as an important step in your journey to handling the life and
death of the animals you will come into contact with. Of course this is
only based on my little life's experiences but I thought I would share
it with you anyway ! I hope you can see a moment of profound discovery
in your experience with this. With the gap or "hole" left in your
thoughts of this experience comes a spot for great growth or wisdom if
you let it in and don't allow just the negative feelings to dominate."
So why am I posting about this on my kung fu blog? What does this have to do with anything? It just reminded me that a struggle with anything- ethics, your belief system, a thrust kick, an injury that keeps you from training, whatever, is a chance to grow and change for the better. What would your life be, or your training be if it was a wide flat path with no obstructions or detours along the way? Adversity makes us stronger, pushing ourselves to do the seemingly impossible doesn't just make us physically stronger it changes something in your mind too.
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Snake Team
I will be part of the I Ho Chaun team this coming year, the Year of the Snake. I am excited and nervous after yesterdays meeting. I know what the level of commitment needs to be and life is hectic as it is right now. That being said I looked back on the year that I was preparing to grade for black belt, the test itself and then the preparation for the banquet. My school schedule was much more demanding at that time, I was at the kwoon almost as long as it was open every day and Sundays. I don't know how I did it, but I did. I made it through 3 years of UBBT previously. So yes, I can do this. I am looking forward to coming up with requirements, I feel like I have more freedom now to really tailor this for myself and all my wonderful injuries.
In the last 3 years of my life I have had more personal growth than any other time in my life. I can attribute this in large part to being a part of the UBBT teams. I have accomplished so many things I thought I couldn't do and learned a lot about who I am through some spectacular failures as well. I finally got the courage to go back to school and its been one of the best decisions I've made for myself. I worked this summer in a vet clinic and I loved it. It cemented the fact that this is what I want to be doing and it's wonderful to feel passionate about my career.
Now I want to take my kung fu career in the same direction. I admit when I started working after school and since starting school again my training has dropped off. I always said I wouldn't let that happen but here it is, so now I'm going to fix it. So excited to be part of the team!
Our little rescue dog is doing great. He has adapted wonderfully to being a tripod. There have been some rough times when he falls, and he got home and was like Bambi on ice with our laminate flooring. The runways of area rugs around the house were not ideal to say the least, Adrien is in the process of tiling the main floor so he can walk around the house. The dog clearly has us all wrapped around his fuzzy little paw. Till next week everyone.
In the last 3 years of my life I have had more personal growth than any other time in my life. I can attribute this in large part to being a part of the UBBT teams. I have accomplished so many things I thought I couldn't do and learned a lot about who I am through some spectacular failures as well. I finally got the courage to go back to school and its been one of the best decisions I've made for myself. I worked this summer in a vet clinic and I loved it. It cemented the fact that this is what I want to be doing and it's wonderful to feel passionate about my career.
Now I want to take my kung fu career in the same direction. I admit when I started working after school and since starting school again my training has dropped off. I always said I wouldn't let that happen but here it is, so now I'm going to fix it. So excited to be part of the team!
Our little rescue dog is doing great. He has adapted wonderfully to being a tripod. There have been some rough times when he falls, and he got home and was like Bambi on ice with our laminate flooring. The runways of area rugs around the house were not ideal to say the least, Adrien is in the process of tiling the main floor so he can walk around the house. The dog clearly has us all wrapped around his fuzzy little paw. Till next week everyone.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Little Helios
This summer a stray dog was brought into the vet clinic that I work at. A client of the clinic had witnessed the dog being hit by a truck and brought him in. One of his back legs was fractured in two places. One front leg was swollen and painful- plus assorted scrapes and road rash. We all fell in love with this sweet natured little dog who wagged his tail whenever we walked by even though he was in pain. Policy is to hold strays for 72 hours before euthanizing in case they have an owner who is looking for them. The lady who brought little stray in (as I had started to call him) was trying to raise money to send him to a specialist to have his leg fixed. The $3500-$4000 surgery was too much though.
So here he sits in our clinic with all his broken bits and pieces. The owner of the clinic decided to do what she could for him instead of putting him down in the hopes he could be fixed up and adopted out. It had been a week since he came in. He underwent a 5 hour surgery and had cerclage wire and an IM pin put into his femur to try to let the bone heal. He did poorly under anesthetic and stopped breathing several times, but he made it through the surgery.
We all cheered the first day that he put weight on the leg and took some tentative steps around the enclosure. So he continued to stay with us at the clinic doing physio therapy and going for short walks. I started to have a hard time thinking of him going home with anyone but me. After some long talks Adrien and I decided that he was the dog for us. He would always have a funny leg and a limp but we were fine with it. He had the pin taken out of his leg just over a week ago. When we x-rayed him this week to see how the leg was progressing I was devastated. His femur had collapsed into itself. His leg looked like a broken bag of potato chips, it was hopelessly broken again. He needs to have his leg amputated. Adrien and I had another talk with lots of looking online to find out more. We both knew he was still our dog and gave the go ahead for surgery.
Adrien has chosen the name Helios for him- Helios Gracie is one of the founders of Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. He was small in stature and found that many moves required brute strength and so developed a system of techniques that allowed a smaller and weaker opponent to defend themselves against someone larger and stronger.
His surgery will be next week while I am away. We are worried that he won't do well under anesthetic again., and the vet thinks it's better if I'm not a part of his surgery. I know he is a little fighter and 3 legs won't keep him down- but I don't think it could hurt to have our kung fu family sending some of your fighting spirit thoughts his way next week.
Wednesday, August 8, 2012
Some "you" time
I finally went and saw a podiatrist and had an official diagnosis of plantar fasciitis. I had my feet cast for some very expensive orthotic inserts and all this only took me about 3 years or so to do. Now that I've gone and done all this I am really kicking myself for not doing it sooner. It actually took less than an hour-I'm sure I could have fit that in somewhere, I mean I'm busy but not that busy.
I think as I am getting older and some of the nagging pains I've ignored for such a long time seem to have progressed into full blown chronic problems I wonder why I didn't make time for myself somewhere along the line. As a colored belt and into Sihing and then the year into grading I always pushed myself hard, and honestly really didn't train smart either. Some of my problems are not the result of kung fu but are aggravated by training. While it is important to push yourself to progress it's also important to make sure your going to be able to train in a few years as well. I think it would be safe to say that more than half of the students actively training in kung fu- if not more- are dealing with ongoing injuries or pain. So what's that old saying? An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure...How true it is. Take care of yourself, learn to listen and recognize when something is out whack with your body or your health. Fuel your body with good food. Stretch, don't be afraid to take it easy for 1 or 2 classes if you've got something going on, trust me it will be worth it!
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
ok, it's been a long time...again.
As a children's instructor there are days that I wonder why I am a children's instructor. Those are the days that I can't seem to get through to any of the kids or connect personally in any way, I'll struggle to keep the attention of the class- even a small group. I want to convey my love of kung fu to them- I want them to love it too. I want them to try hard and have goals that they work to succeed and feel the success of achieving a goal, and also to understand that failure doesn't mean you stop trying, it just means the eventual success is even sweeter. I want them to know that the best things in life are often the ones that are the hardest to get. But then I have days I can hardly keep all eyes up front, or so it seems. Of course there are the "on" days that I leave feeling like a million bucks because I saw the fire in someones eyes, or the class was engaged and attentive the whole time- lets face it that's practically a miracle in a class of close to 30 kids from 8-12 or so.
Yesterday in class I felt like it was one of the days that I was off. The kids all had pent up energy and it seemed to me that they were having a hard time focusing. Sifu Vantuil had them pair up and work on a form to perform by the end of the class. I was really surprised when we watched them perform. They were good, really, really good. I couldn't help smile. Even though there are off days these guys are getting really great and I forget to keep that in perspective sometimes. I am proud of each one of them. Being a kids instructor has challenges but it's so rewarding.
Here is a joke that the smallest Rice told me during class on Monday. She pulls her little orange belt up to her armpits and says "Sifu, look! I just got a higher belt!" I might have to use that one.
Yesterday in class I felt like it was one of the days that I was off. The kids all had pent up energy and it seemed to me that they were having a hard time focusing. Sifu Vantuil had them pair up and work on a form to perform by the end of the class. I was really surprised when we watched them perform. They were good, really, really good. I couldn't help smile. Even though there are off days these guys are getting really great and I forget to keep that in perspective sometimes. I am proud of each one of them. Being a kids instructor has challenges but it's so rewarding.
Here is a joke that the smallest Rice told me during class on Monday. She pulls her little orange belt up to her armpits and says "Sifu, look! I just got a higher belt!" I might have to use that one.
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
it's been a while
I haven't written in quite a while. It's strange not having the commitment to blog every week after doing it for 3 years. Now that it's been so long I wonder how I stuck with it.
I have not been training as much as I was lately, working a new job with different hours has changed my schedule a lot. I am working the early evenings so most times I head straight from work to kung fu, or I miss it completely. I have been sitting on the bench watching the blue brown class- something I never used to do, but the issues I have been having with my feet are back with a vengence. I'm on my feet all day again and sometimes it's just too painful to even think of spending an hour on the mats participating in class. I even watched black belt class last week- they were just too sore to stand on, on the bad days it makes my knees ache. As with anyone with an injury knows it's hard to feel limited in what you can do, and as with most of my chronic injuries I really haven't taken care of this one until it's do or die.
On the positive side I am working in a vet clinic and the experience I'm getting is amazing. I've done more hands on in the last month than a whole year of school. There are times that it's a little bit of trial by fire for me, but I'm up to the challenge. Learning side mount at kung fu has done wonders for my large dog restraint!
I have not been training as much as I was lately, working a new job with different hours has changed my schedule a lot. I am working the early evenings so most times I head straight from work to kung fu, or I miss it completely. I have been sitting on the bench watching the blue brown class- something I never used to do, but the issues I have been having with my feet are back with a vengence. I'm on my feet all day again and sometimes it's just too painful to even think of spending an hour on the mats participating in class. I even watched black belt class last week- they were just too sore to stand on, on the bad days it makes my knees ache. As with anyone with an injury knows it's hard to feel limited in what you can do, and as with most of my chronic injuries I really haven't taken care of this one until it's do or die.
On the positive side I am working in a vet clinic and the experience I'm getting is amazing. I've done more hands on in the last month than a whole year of school. There are times that it's a little bit of trial by fire for me, but I'm up to the challenge. Learning side mount at kung fu has done wonders for my large dog restraint!
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Action!
I have a teacher, a vet , who likes to add quotes into lecture. I was reviewing for final exams and came across a quote in my nervous system notes that I really liked. "An idea not coupled with action will never get any bigger than the brain cell it occupied." -Arnold Glasgow
It's funny how hard it can be sometimes to spur ourselves into action. There are so many people with all kinds of great ideas, plans, goals that never come to anything because they never followed through. Follow through, or action, is one of the qualities of a champion and a leader, taking consistent action is the most important step in the black belt success cycle; without it the other steps don't mean anything. What ever it is in life we want or aspire to; action is the key.
It's funny how hard it can be sometimes to spur ourselves into action. There are so many people with all kinds of great ideas, plans, goals that never come to anything because they never followed through. Follow through, or action, is one of the qualities of a champion and a leader, taking consistent action is the most important step in the black belt success cycle; without it the other steps don't mean anything. What ever it is in life we want or aspire to; action is the key.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Simulate
The past few weeks in the halls of NAIT there have been a lot of "SIM" Labs going on. The respiratory therapy students are rolled down the hallways on stretchers while giving CPR to a "patient", the paramedics have actors simulating an emergency scenario, even the medical lab students deal with an emotionally volatile "patient" in the lab next door. I had my turn in a SIM lab last week as well, an animal comes in, and I choose my drugs and do calculations, induce, tube and hook up to the anesthetic machine. From an outside point of view it seems silly to watch people take a situation that isn't actually an emergency so seriously. I know these are actors, I know that I can't really kill this animal, but these experiences are stressful. We are meant to be put in a stressful situation so we can learn how to keep our cool under pressure. More learning happens when under a certain level of stress, and we learn valuable lessons from these simulated emergencies.
It is important to get put ourselves in controlled situations where our stress level is up at kung fu as well. I know a lot of students get uncomfortable about sparring but it is a great tool. We don't spar so we learn to be stand up fighters, it teaches us how to move and react in a situation where our blood pressure is up so we can learn to think on our feet so to speak. Sparring in class is a safe, controlled environment that brings up a little bit of that stress response and can be a great learning experience.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Mind over Body
Last night I watched the Sihing class run through the sequence of timed kicks and punches that is part of the black belt grading. It was strange to be on the sidelines but it was a great learning experience. Sifu Brinker talked after class about how it's more of a mental struggle than a physical one to get through something grueling, and so it is. I read about a man, and "ultramarathoner" who said that usually when our brains are telling us we can't do anymore that we are actually physically capable of giving another 50%. Many marathon runners are older than you might think-with age we learn to have the mental fortitude it takes to accomplish these great physical challenges. I remember practicing my timed horse stance with bean bags for the grading, my legs were burning and shaking, the sweat dripped down my face- I couldn't hold it another second... so I stood up. If I had really held that horse stance to my physical limit I would have fallen down, not stood up. Learning to use the power of my mind to push myself physically was the most powerful tool I gained during that training time. I can't say I don't still give in to my body's demands when I'm working out, but it's gotten better.
I remember being in Sihing class after doing the timed kicks and feeling like there was absolutely no way, EVER, that I would be in good enough shape to grade for black belt and succeed. As Sifu Brinker said- that was 16 minutes out of your 12 hour grading. Preparing physically is very important,but it's the mental part of these workouts that will serve you even better. Always push yourself and your mind will get stronger as well as your body.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Make the connection
This week I came face to face with reality. As part of my animal health training I am required to work a certain number of shifts at the Animal Care and Control Center, better known as the city pound. It is one thing to hear that there are a lot of unwanted animals and it is quite another to face a roomful of animals that are waiting their turn for euthanasia. Suddenly there is a connection.
I have started to notice that most people don't want the connection, no one wants to face that because its heartbreaking and ugly, and in the moment I felt hopeless. This goes for all the things that we turn a blind eye to because we can. I know that there are starving people, war and injustice just to name a few, but these things are easily put out of our heads because they don't effect us personally. The world needs people like us to make connections to the world around us. This is how we become the change we want to see. I could talk your face off about how important it is to support rescue groups and to spay or neuter your pet after making my connection. Obviously you can't become an advocate for every cause out there, but find something you care about and get passionate about it. The charities Silent River gives to is a great place to start. Don't be afraid to get out there, it's when we stop sticking our heads in the sand that change happens.
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