Gaining Momentum

There are days during this UBBT journey that I question what the heck I was thinking when I said I wanted to do it, but I can always recall the feeling I had when Sifu Brinker asked me if I was interested in being a part of it. And then I kick myself and tell myself how lucky I am to be part of it.
In some ways I feel lucky that I am not a black belt at this point. I feel like it gives me an advantage because it always motivates me to work harder. It's kind of like being part of a secret club and you didn't go through the hazing but everyone else did so you have to work twice as hard to show everyone else that you deserve to be there.
I have never been in better shape in my life. I am faster than I ever have been. I am stronger than I have ever been. I am more compassionate and kinder than I have ever been. In the last 5 months I have done more things that I have never done than the rest of my adult life. I feel like my life has gained a momentum that I never want to lose.
I think about the reasons that so many things that I have wanted to do haven't happened until now, I think about people that talk to me about how they just can't seem to accomplish the things they set out to do, and I know now that if you don't give 100% commitment it won't happen. It's really one of those kind of disappointing answers for people because everyone wants to know what the secret is and it's not a secret. Your just doing what you said you were going to do!
Every time I feel like I can't do anymore push ups or forms or whatever it is I think about rolling backwards down a hill and how hard it is to stop that negative momentum. Speaking of which, I need to go do some push ups.