I can't believe it

I never forget to blog, and I did yesterday. I guess I can't say I never forget to blog now. Yesterday was my first day back to school in 12 years. Scary. Luckily I had no time to feel worried about it, I've been hauling butt completing an assignment I thought I had another month to finish for kung fu.

So I've been doing a lot of people watching the past couple of days and there are a few things I've noticed. One is that most people don't make eye contact with each other on a casual level, say just walking past someone, or when your standing in a line up. Another is that despite what people are saying a lot of times their body language is saying the opposite. There are a lot of really self conscious people out there.
I feel like martial arts has played a huge role in my self esteem over the past few years. I was about the shyest person in the world as a kid and a young adult. I spent my life having my dad tell me to speak up and look at people when I was talking to them. As a teenager at my first few jobs, co workers would tell me they thought I was really stuck up before they got to know me because I would never talk or look at anyone.
It helps that I'm 30 now ( isn't age supposed to come with wisdom?), I'm much more comfortable in my skin, and I'm a mom too, thats changed me a lot. But kung fu has really given me an awareness of myself. I see it with others at the kwoon as well. Being a martial artist makes you move differently, carry yourself differently. I wouldn't claim to be a martial 'artist' yet, but it's definitley done some great things for me.