I'm getting buried out here.

I think winter is here forever, just get used to the inevitable everyone! Although the unwanted snow keeps coming, it does give me an opportunity to do acts of kindness for the seniors in Stony Plain. The two driveways our our group keeps up belong to some really sweet seniors. Sometimes when your out there shoveling and it's snowing and blowing up the back of your jacket it's hard to feel warm and fuzzy about doing good, but when a senior citizen opens the door and hands you some home made treats and says thank you so much, it puts a face to who your helping, and I realize all over again why we do this every year.

This week I feel like I fully realized the vast scope of what I need to be working on in order to be ready to test for black belt in October. Sometimes I think other people have more faith in me than they should. I don't know if I will be ready. There are days that I drive home and I think of all the homework in my backpack and the grade point average I want to maintain, the dinner to make, the kung fu class to teach, the kids to put to bed, my dwindling numbers on physout and all the training I should be doing every night and all the time I want to spend hiding my head under a pillow and it seems insurmountable. I know that all the others who are part of the UBBT or Sihings preparing for black belt are in the same boat, but I guess I felt sorry for myself this week. I suppose I just pull up my socks and keep on keeping on. The snow will have to melt sooner or later, and thats probably all thats got me feeling like I need a vacation right now.